I haven't written many of these journal entries because I am more apt at expressing my thoughts through my art. Sometimes I do enjoy writing poems that cluster in my mind and dwell there for many hours. Sometimes I write them down and other times I let them drift and float away into the dark, forgotten cornors of my mind. I don't expect anyone to read this and hope no one has to. This is for me, so I can remember, you just observe...

I lay awake staring into darkness,
My eyes decieve me, or is this a dream?
I open them, and close them,
This all seems too real.
My eyes must be lying. I know what I feel.
I try to change the channel,
But somethings holding me back,
Now I'm here, but it's you I lack.
My fear drags on, and instinct takes over,
I want this to end, but it will never be over....

And so on, I need to think of a suitable ending, but I have yet to come to one....